So, I am actually writing this from home holding my beautiful little Fleur at 2 weeks old….rather than a newborn on her due date! I did know she would be eager to get here to meet us all!
Dear Baby Girl,
This hasn’t been an easy ride for mummy, and whilst I love you very very much, I am glad you are here (hopefully safe and well) and no longer in mummy! After suffering from morning (afternoon and evening) sickness from 2 weeks pretty much until you popped out, you also decided that gestational diabetes was going to be added to the mix. That, along with growing to be a big, strong girl inside me (and showing way off the charts) you thought that by adding swelling to my legs, ankles, legs and hips, SPD, headaches, pre-eclampsia scares and protein in my urine every single urine test, I was beginning to get a bit worried. Add Ketones, Electrolytes, reduced movement, contractions from 34 weeks and needing steriods you certainly had me wondering what I was doing wrong to not be 100% healthy. The good thing was, that even though mummy was falling apart, you seemed quite content.
Sleeping through all the hook ups to the contraction machines, all the scans and growth scans as well as all the internal examinations. I do know one thing though, I would do it all again to have you here, and love you so much and always will. However, can you please maybe be a good girl for mummy as I need lots of cuddles with you (and a few hundred kisses) to help me forget the pain and fall in love with you even more.
I still cannot believe that after looking at your two scans you are actually a little person, sitting here in my arms, singing away whilst I type this. I am totally in love and think you will always be the most beautiful thing in the world to me. Lots of Love, Mummy xxx